It has been more then anything else quite a busy week. All I can say is that thank god it was only four days. It was busy enough that the fourth day i must have gotten through purely on character, that and well having something to look forward to on Friday. But perhaps more about that later. With the weekend also quite busy, i have sadly neglected by far the need to actually sit down and write a blog.
I has certainly not help that this week I have very much been struggling to find a topic that I can write enough about. So this week it is going to be a mismatch of topics that I want to talk about. Some of these topics I have wanted to write about, some of these were given to me, by people. For that as always I am eternally grateful, well at least until next week!
Writing every week can be quite a struggle. Sometimes real life interferes and if you do as I, and don’t write too much about the reality of it all, but more a lot about BDSM,there are only so many different topics you can touch. Yes I am sure you all can bring arguments to the fore that yes, there are different topics to write about. And yes, you are right – I probably have written less then ten percent of all my blogs about what encompasses all that is BDSM.
The thing is however…,
that we do write about the things we like, and more importantly the things we know. I have for example written in the past about the relationship between female dominants and male submissives. A topic I have absolutely very little affinity with. While I think I did a decent job of it, I still found it a lot harder to write something that is so far outside my frame of reference, that I was pretty much making up things as I went along. Sure, I have second hand experience, by reading and observing those dynamics, but that is totally different from having done it and live it
So yes, each week there is a struggle, each week you need to come up with something worthy to say. That is admittedly not easy (also admittedly to write about the struggle between writing and finding topics worthy to write about. I wish it was for me to say that these topics come easy, sadly this is not to be true. I find my topics in every day life. In discussions, exchanges, communication. In points I struggle and points I revel myself. In circumstances both glorious and tragic.
It is a struggle. Especially when you write every week, for several years. Sure having inspiration and a muse *smiles warmly* does help. No, I have to be honest. It helps tremendously. It is something that drives you, that helps you find the words when none will come. For that I am really always grateful. To the one it applies, I know I have said thank you to you, many a times. Those words do not do it justice. From the deepest bottom of my heart, I am profoundly grateful for everything you have meant to me so far.
One of the things that came to be discussed this week, was intent. Intent changes everything. Intent can be an incredible force for good or an force changing a situation for the worst. Good intent, which I want to focus on, makes you drive further onward, wanting to excel, wanting to endure. Granted this needs to be far more expanded upon. Not something that I can do in the time that was left me to write it.
Because frankly, I am being in bed too late as we speak. I am not sure that between the two evils that I have chosen this is the right one. But inspiration to actually pound out some words struck me, so I wanted to get this blog out before I could. Truth is, with it being too warm and with me having slept in late this morning, I am not as tired as I should be. Yes I know this is entirely illegitimate self justification and would not matter, should not matter. I know I am wrong. I accept that.
Before wrapping this up -I wanted to share some quotes that struck me. This started when I saw a tumbler blog that featured something among this line “a wannabe dominant thinks only about himself. A good dominant this about his submissive. A wannabe submissive thinks only about herself, a good submissive thinks about her dominant.
This let me to finding a few quotes of my own that spoke to me for various reasons and I wanted to share with you. At the moment due to time constraints I am not going to get into why I like them. They just speak to me on a deep personal level
- For you, I wish to be all you want, all you crave, all you need. For you I wish to be perfect
- I crave to be known by only one name … His.
- Being submissive has Never been about being powerless. It is about the conscious decision to gift that power to the person you deem the most worth of it
- Waiting is a sign of love and patience. Anyone can say “I adore you”, but not everyone can wait to prove it is true
- A naked body is beautiful. A naked mind is fucking amazing.
I especially like the last one. And on that note I am going to wrap this up and get my butt into bed. Tomorrow morning comes soon enough. I hope you all have a wonderful week and that it may bring you the happiness that you deserve and desire.
With love, laughter and looking forward
lexi
Thoughts pertaining BDSM that I had this week:
- Intent; how intent brings change, how intent can change something that you fear into something that you desire
- Dancing; How I miss dancing and how I was looking forward on getting ready without worrying for once too much. A very liberating and strange experience at the same time. I enjoyed it. Lots. The act of being in that space that you don’t have to worry, that you are being cared for, that all you have to do is to give in. It’s been too long.
- Pain; receiving and needing it.
- Nothing else really, work and other things took up most of my time, or drained my brains completely for many coherent thoughts. Well I say nothing really. I am sure there are plenty of thoughts that have occupied my mind, but I can’t remember them. I should write them down.
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