this is going a lot shorter then last week, mostly because for some reason I have been exceedingly tired. It feels rather more then usual. Normally the first blame would have been going late to bed, however for once I can not even put the blame squarely there. I have been sleeping well reasonably (bar Sunday but okay) – However I slept wonderfully last night.
Granted there is a chance that this was the exhaustion talking. The thing that bothers me mostly is that due to me being so tired, I have very little inspiration to actually do any kind of writing. I have the drive but nothing to heavily – which is the part that annoys me. I need more time, to sit down and work out a plan what I am writing about and work with that.
Coming up with a plan is about half the work in most cases. But sadly this weekend and these last two days my brain has been too much of a much to do anything else. I know partly why actually; I am taking some steps moving away from a few projects that I have been associated with for the last, well eight years give or take. And while I have not been active in a long time in them, the step to actually step back from the limelight and into the shadows was a pretty hard one to take.
Mostly time, and circumstances have changed and I am needing more time to focus on other things and perhaps trying to unburden myself for not being as involved as I once was. Time will tell how things work out in the long run. Change, as most will know, is always difficult, even more so to me (look, I am a precious little snowfl..snow-leopard okay!).
It is quite possible that I am in part so tired because of all this and a few other things that happened. I had also some tests done on Friday that I was very nervous about. No, please do not worry, nothing serious, or there is anything wrong with me. Mostly they are tests that will help me deal with a few things and get a few things in my noggins straight.
Yes, yes, I am very aware that this sounds so very curious. I am not really doing it to be curious but perhaps trying to walk a very thin and fine line between disclosing what is going on in my head and choosing for relatively privacy. If you really want to know, feel free to ask me about it and I may tell you more.
But I fear that this is all I have to say this week, blogging over the next weeks may be a little bit more irregular then always – especially as I have plans to reinstall my computer and rebuild that over the next weekend, although I will say – this time around it will be a lot more quicker as I hopefully do not have to compile a lot of things
And with that, I am going to post this quickly, then hop off-line to get some sleep. Another long day is ahead of me tomorrow. I hope you are all having a good week and that the days ahead may even be better.
Above all, thank you for letting me rant, yes I know, as I often say, this is my blog but I als feel that I can happily rant here and a little bit unload and share more of myself, so thank you for that
Stay safe, be good and have fun