Posts Tagged ‘bane’

So, as always, I tend to pick up inspiration about things to write, when people in Second Life tend to talk about things. One of these subjects that was talked about this week was the usage of RLV restrictions or rather why a particular set of restriction was not useful. This lead me to the topic of this week: RLV restrictions and how to apply them.

So this post is going to be strictly about the world of Second Life, and the use of BDSM with in that and pretty much geared towards bondage. I thought it would make a nice change from the otherwise general BDSM advice (or there abouts) that I tend to write about. That is when I am not writing creatively or rambling freestyle.

The biggest problem I have with writing about this subject is that I am pretty much in two minds about this subject. On the one hand I can see to make certain restrictions have certain consequences about the interaction in world, but on the other hand; as a submissive (and especially one who very much love to be bound) my pleasure derives from doing dominant expects of me. And if my dominant decide to apply restrictions in a lesser or more restrictive format, I am not one to complain or tell that they are doing it wrong. I really have more sense than that. Honestly, really. Fer realz.

(And okay, I may just love it … but that is a discussion entirely best suited for another time)

So what is so interesting about RLV restrictions?

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Hi everyone, I am back from my mini-break with family and shall continue blogging in my usual fashion soon. For now please stick with me while I write a quick blog post. Sadly real-life has somewhat conspired against me, and I am struggling to find a good topic that I can write about in a short time. Hence the following: you are stuck with this weekly blog-post being rather freestyle and me rambling on a bit about the various things that keep me busy and hopefully next week I can write more insightful musings.

With regards to my blog, I have a great question for you readers (I know you are out there, after all I do have site stats 😉 ); what kind of thing would you like to know more about or would you like to see me write about. I know from the search terms that my blog comes up often in terms of rubberdolls, banes, isolation, dollifications and picture of my posterior (really people?) *laughs*. So if there is something you like to know more about or perhaps like me to write more in-depth about, leave me a comment and I’ll see what I can do.


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Sometimes, I really should keep my mouth shut. I really should take the following lesson to heart:

“I will not make my life more difficult than necessary.”

As .. well … You would think by now, I would learn, wouldn’t you? I mean, you would, right?

Here I was, at home, with Mistress, just talking about the various bits and bobs and joking. Happily curled up in front of her (as kittens are notoriously known to do) and doing the things I usually do, which might include nipping and being just general a silly, playfull kitten.

Mistress and I cuddling and talking at home.

I can’t remember how exactly we got here, but at some point I started asking about trouble. It was getting late, so Mistress gently chided me, that I might be in a whole lot of trouble where it not for the fact that it was pretty late.

See, at this point, anyone with an ounce of common sense and grounding in the ways of the wise would have taken her word for it and just left it at that. It’s a good thing I still have the cute thing going for me. 😉

After some teasing about how much trouble I exactly would be in and what this would entail, I ended up being muted through my collar and shortly later I was ‘helped’ inside the banesuit once more again.

And that is where I am now, and have been for the past couple of days. Locked away and shielded from the outside world. For how long? who knows. It may be some time, It may be not. Time will tell.

me relaxing on the edge and "sunbathing" under a tree at home

Right now I am just relaxing outside our home. Perhaps soon I will start wandering around various sims or making my ways around. If you see me, feel free to say hi. Just realise that I won’t be able to really respond much, it at all.

So yes, I guess it really meant that lesson has not sunk in that I should not make my life more difficult for myself than I really need. But all in all I also got to remember:

Mistress is not evil, just merely kind.

She really is :)) And frankly, part of me loves to be as much restrained and completely at her mercy and whims as I love seeing and able to talk to my friends.

L-8746 (aka lexi)

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Well, I can tell you this.
(yes this post is several weeks too late, (okay months), thanks Vanni 😉 )

Sables Bane helmet is definitely evil! After the first day or so, Mistress looked in on me and got a grand total of 24 weeks and a couple of days added. For what I am not sure. I know that when I added some stuff to the helmet, I forgot to reset it and thus accumulated a lot of penalties, although “only” 32 or so. However with a penalty time of an hour, you can imagine how that pretty much racks up.

Somehow, somewhere in between I must have accumulated a lot of extra penalties. I am really not that bad! Don’t believe the press, okay so I get make a mistake here and then … but 32! in less than a day!? Come on, that is even stressing it by my standards! *grins*

Anyway; After after waking up the next day, I decided to take a wander around, mostly relaxing around the Deitide sim.

Relaxing at the water side

relaxing in deitide.

After a while I got bored and decidedly set my sights on walking over to the Zhora sim. After briefly looking at the maps, I figured I would just use a general direction and check occasionally. Also I wouldn’t jump of ledges where I really couldn’t scale normally (like double my height), unless it meant tracking around for hours (i am notoriously lazy) 😉

It was fun to wander around but I was also nervous for running into people. So much, that I tended to actually hide between houses and in patches of green or well really where ever I could to avoid any contact. I reached Zhora and hang out for a while there and eventually made my way back again as well.

I can’t remember really how long I have been a bane this time. Mistress at one point decided that it was enough (a handy advantage this time) and she released me.

She did tell me that for certain this was not the last time that I would be seen as a bane. And I have a feeling the next time, it will be a lot lot longer. It was all in all a rather interesting experience, quite different from the last time. For once i had more freedom wandering around, but at the same time the restrictions enforced by the bane helmet were much harder.

I both look forward and dread going back…


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Well shortly after Mistress left for the night, I decided to head into the world. Sure it is easy being a bane when nobody is around on a skybox ..roughly 400-odd meters of the ground. But nobody said that it was about being easy. In fact I think some one (who goes by the designation of M-8722) posted on Marine’s Blog that it was an experiment to be savored. So my first act was to leave the safe and comfortable surrounding of home behind me. knowing it might be a while before I am there again.

Anyway, I digress. I made my way to Deitide and after a brief wandering around there and Castle Darkstone, i found myself near the Stonehenge monument. I thought this was as good a place to spend the night as any. I made myself as comfortable as possible and dozed off for the night 🙂

The following morning I set off exploring the surrounding. I am still half of mind to try and make my way across to Zhora. just I guess to see others in somewhat similar circumstances. Perhaps. The relaxing morning (Deitide is quite a pretty sim to wonder around in) was somewhat broken by me crossing paths with fdili Polki. I am not sure what she must have been thinking. By the looks of it she was quite new to Second Life and I am sure she was just looking to talk to me. I think my behaviour must have kinda spooked her as I abrubtly turned around and kept moving away from her as steadily as possible. I could have tp-ed away but somehow I never saw a reason to. So fdili, sorry if I didn’t talk back to you or paid you any attention, I am just not able to do that.

Anyway the rest of the day I spend mostly lazing about around Deitide and neighboring sims. Hopefully more later on my time ..


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Well this is going to be a short post. Right now I am back in the banesuit (using Scorpions/Sables bane suit). I have been informed that I will be in this for at least 24 hours, well that is 24 hours + any time I add to it myself due to violations.

Right now, I have made my way into deitide, finding a place to sleep between the walls of stonehenge. I will try to give tomorrow a better update. Part of me is thrilled to be back and part of me is a little bit scared. How will things be the second time around? I have no idea right now. Guess time will tell.

For now .. lex is gone .. and L-8746 is back. For how long, again, time will tell


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Well tonight around 6pm SLT the suit unlocked and L-8746 ceased to exist and could be just normal Lexi again. The experience has ended and once again I am able, or should be able to be me again.

Right now I am really drained due to various circumstances. For now I just want to relax, spend loads of time cuddling, and spending time with my friends, cause even though I choose to undergo this, I did miss you all an awful lot, and pick up my life and go back to being me again.

I hope to quickly post a longer blog with some thoughts about the experience and how it affected me. I can only say one thing: *IF* you ever consider doing this, give it serious thought, it’s much much harder than you think it will be and even with the limited amount of contact that I had with other people, it was a lot harder than I thought it would be.

I am not saying this to scare anyone away, but to make you aware that doing this for a long term period, it *will* affect you. And yes, you probably think now, I can handle that. I can only say one thing: When Marine Kelley put the same warning in her blog, I thought as well, how hard can it be.

… now I know..

with love


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As I have been writing mostly over on the Subbie Union Blog, I think a little explanation here is in order to what has been going on the last couple of days:

After my ‘adventure’ as described in Short Term Isolation I finally managed to complete my own Isolation suit. Of course being as eager as I was, I happily showed it to Mistress, I knew what was going to happen next, she would ofcourse lock it after using her RealKey (great idea to sync all items to the same key ;)). However what I did not realize is that how far this would go.

See my greatest problem is my mouth (I am sure I have told this before), so after telling Mistress how to make the experience better (no timers, no release etc), Mistress of course happily obliged. But what a mistake to make. It seems that Mistress is highly happy with the idea of me being isolated, and all the while having her as my only source of contact.

So if I have been quiet in world, and not talked much, please do not be upset, I am *NOT* ignoring you. It is really simple down to this: I can’t communicate. The suit is rather devil-ish (thanks sis) contraption, mostly sprung from the wonderfull mind of my sis, it consist atleast of 7 different types of restraints, from top to bottom you’re looking at:


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Once in a while…

you come across a story, a story that challenges you, changes your perception. Recently I have come across a story like that and the it’s called “Eudeamon.” (NSFW) The author of this story is someone called EvilDolly (NSFW), and if someone should get into professional writing it is her.

I really have no other words to describe this story than “Oh fuck wow”, “It’s good …. very very good”. It’s so good it makes me almost want to give up writing. (there is also Galatea’sode to suckage’ (or rather the pearl of wisdom) so to speak which also quite speaks to me)

I can really urge you to go and have a read of it. It really touched me on so many levels. It scared me, it filled me with envy, dread, want and above all it made me laugh when the main character was happy and it made me cry when she went through horrible situations. The last couple of chapters I barely stopped weeping from either joy or sadness.

And what about the book, cause it’s really more a book (at 91 pages or so) than a story. I think I am gonna just quote Marine Kelly:

Now why am I talking about this novel ? Well, because the book… shook me a little. In a positive way. It’s definitely food for thoughts, the kind of book that makes you think about yourself, how you perceive others, what your kinks really mean… It gives you a glance about sub-space, about isolation, despair and how to transcend them, about the limits of human sanity. Like meditation. I feel better now that I’ve read this book although I cannot clearly point out why. But who cares. Read this book, and you’ll know.

And I agree. Once you have read the story, you’ll either know exactly what she means or you don’t. And sadly, if you don’t I don’t think you will not get it. Sad perhaps, but I think true. For me, I am not gonna reveal (yet) why this is so immensely powerful. There are so many reasons and I am trying to make sense of them in my head.

I think those that really know me, probably have a good idea exactly why this hits me the way it does.

As for the rest. I have just watched Velicia wander around for five and a half hours in a sort of Isolation suit, her version of it and it …. *sighs* it scares me, thrills me, I envy her and yes, I am jealous and wanted to be in her situation. It also fills me with dread, doubt and wondering if I ever could do such a thing. I hope she will write about her experiences ….

Vel .. please, sis?


P.S: The follow-up with be readable on the SL Subbie Union Blog.

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