Good evening everyone.
It was a busy weekend, to the point of even getting a slight sunburn. I don’t do well in the sun. However some of the work I wanted to do in the garden is finally done. By no means I am done here but it doesn’t look as much as the overgrown jungle that it was.
As such I have been rather the opposite today and mostly been lounging around the house and relaxing. It does seem that this is the way my weekends are shaping up. Saturday for social and Sunday for rest and relaxation, preparing myself for the week to come. All in all I can live with that.
As for the world of Second Life, well that’s up and down. I still log in and talk to people but nowhere near as much as I used to. It’s kinda bizarre in how many ways my life has changed in the last few months. All in all I would say for the better except … well I think most of you know me well enough to know where that one is leading. Still no word, no sign, no nothing.
It’s coming up nine months and yet I still can’t to seem to be able to shake myself loose from her. I still feel bad if I do something that I know would carry her disapproval. Strange but I suppose in a way it is not. That’s the effect of her training. Maybe one day, I can move past it … but not at the moment.
While I am saying not now, I have noticed that in many cases I feel somewhat less strongly about infractions. I still do not like making them but at the same time the times that I would tear myself apart over this have also moved behind me. I suppose that having gone unchecked for the last nine months is part that effect. As I wrote a long long time ago when I started this blog – there is much power in knowing there is a stick behind the door. That motivation that comes with knowing both where your boundaries lies and what crossing those boundaries means.
On a slightly other note: I have been hopping around Second Life’s clubs and simms landscape today and one of the things that clearly stand out to me is how many of these club are so exclusive. They are more often then not gathered to one gender then not. Well perhaps I am phrasing this wrong. Not one sex but one set of relationships perhaps. To the exclusion of all others
The thing that really bothers me is how those clubs are pointing out how “if you are a female submissive with a female dominant, that means absolutely nothing to us”. The air of misogynism is rather high.
I get it though. It’s your club, you want to run it the way you want it. Fine I have no problem with that. After all, I am free to choose where I want to spend my time. But from a personal point of view I much more would like to see a club enviroment where D/s is fully embraced regardless of gender or relationship orientation.
Still, the disregard for a collar is something I find rather worrying. Even if you do not agree with the relationship, you still should recognise the value of the symbolism. It also means to me that not valuing this symbolism – means you place little value on some of the core basic practises of the BDSM lifestyle. And sadly there are way to many clubs like this in SL. Behaviour that really would not fly in Real Life, if you would suggest that, you get laughed out of town.
And I have a confession to make, I am struggling with writing tonight, so I am going to call it quits. I could probably make it work if I spend a few more hours on it but, time is fast approaching for me to be in bed. Otherwise I will be worth absolutely nothing for the coming day and week. I know it is a short one but I promise to come back next week with a lot more questions I have planned.
Please have a great week
Take care, be safe, have fun
lexi
I thought that this was one of the more practical and insightful pieces you have written lately. Thanks!