Well it’s a well known fact that Mistress, can be quite evil at times. One of the things she loves to do is to ask me “What is in it for me?”. Which signals the start of me trying to negotiate what I want in exchange for, well something she wants. This usually ends up with me desperately trying to find something that makes it worth it.
So last time was no difference; her question “What do I get out of the deal?” and I ‘panicked’ as per usual. I have no idea what to give her, what to offer. I mean, what do you offer someone that is in control of your life and you would do anything (well almost anything, I have my limits) to please them.
After frantically racking my brain, I decided on offering her a week in complete isolation. Of course the moment I offered that we were already in our dungeon (in the pit cell to be exact). So that is really where I am. I am tied inside the pit, unable to escape, blindfolded, gagged, and leashed by my collar, wrist shackles and my ankle shackles.
Of course all restrictions are turned on, so I can’t really do anything but just wait for her there: I can’t edit/rez things (if I could see to begin with), use my maps (both map and mini map are blocked), Inventory and such are blocked as well. And of course I can’t receive note cards. Well, I can receive them, just not read them.
If that wasn’t enough, she used the plugins in my Amethyst collar to make me IM-deaf and IM-mute. So I can’t speak to anyone else. Even people coming close I can’t hear, unless they speak in really short actions (ie the /me thing). Considering that the dungeon is guarded by a sadistic bubble-bot, I am by all means, quite alone in the dark.
And you know what it is okay. There is some stuff going on in my life which is impacting on me quite heavy, and in a way being isolated and protected from everything else just feels nice, it’s almost kinda wrapped up tight and protecting. And I know Mistress gets a kick out of knowing I can’t go anywhere.
Hmm I wonder if channel 77 (the command channel for the real restraints) has been blocked yet 
So if you have been wondering where I have been hanging out since last week, that is where. Quietly, restrained, blind to the world. I do feel somewhat guilty at those who try to contact me. Considering I can’t read the notes you all send me, nor respond to your IM’s. But I promise I will be back in touch once I get out.
Right now my cuffs are ranking somewhere around the 30 hours and officially my week is tomorrow over. However Mistress has mentioned she would like me to break my records, which might mean I will be longer locked up (my highest record is somewhere around 78 hours) and you know what?
Part of me wants to break that record and get somewhere near a 100 hours. *grins* and part of me: Just wants to be there as long as she wishes to be. One other thing: I am still convinced that timers are both a blessing and a curse. While it is nice to know how much time I have spend locked up, I also *Hate* to know it. Being locked up for me is not about “the time” but about pleasing Mistress and doing what she (and of course what I) love to do, and what we want to do.
ps; “for those wanting to contact me (and happen to read my blog)“: just leave a comment here. I can’t respond to you in world, not by IM, not by notecard. The only way would be if you get close enough, and then you have to be able to translate my garbled mumbles.
xx
lexi
