After working had on getting the tutorials finished, and spending the last couple of hours (okay, fourteen, but hey who’s counting!?), I finally was released and had a little bit of time to do some things I had already planned. One of the things I had planned was to adapt the RealRestraints Slave crate with all the scripts. After all, once you are in, you are supposedly sealed in foam/packaging material.
After we made a quick trip to Bugshit (again) and I spend about the last of my money on a pure black latex catsuit (which will be part of an isolation suit). After we got home, we decided to see how and if the crate worked just as it should. So as innocent (or naive, or stupid) as I was I stepped into the crate. With a resounding thud, two seconds later the door closed.
And so it began. See one of my biggest problems is that I really do not know how to keep quiet. And not in that I constantly talk. I have this habit of pointing out how things could be better (from Mistress’s point of view) or worse, from my perspective. So before I knew it and had stopped talking, I was not only in the crate, but, bound, gagged and tied as well.
Well let me lay it out for you:
- RealRestraint – Slave crate with *all* scripts in them. (can we introduce, the box of evil)
- RealRestraint – Blindfold, set to opaque (complete and utter darkness)
- RealRestraint – Gag, set to tight with all options turned on (emote monitoring and such
- RealRestraint – Hand and Elbows cuffs, tied to the back (#4, forced mouselook, unable to interact)
- RealRestraint – Legirons, taut, and not allowing TP’s ofcourse)
This led me to the following sticky patch. I can’t move, I can’t see, I can’t talk, I can’t hear. I can’t TP out, Sit out, Edit or Rez. There is virtually nothing I can do but be there. I can communicate with Thalia and she with me. And that is it. Everything else is just simply blocked. IM’s / Chat / TP as far as I am concerned at that moment, do not exist. As i am also running the Restrained Life Viewer for Linux, I can’t detach those items that are locked onto me. It’s just not possible.
I must say it was a very interesting and intense experience, to be so dependable on one person , it accentuates the trust and how much we take those things for granted. Of course, when Thalia suggested to me, that she will keep me there until Christmas, this whole feeling of panicking started to arise in me. Will she .. won’t she. But much as Velicia said: after a while you become okay with that. I guess to a point I would do it, or atleast I would give it my best shot.When Velicia released me, I felt this internal struggle of “yes I want out” and “No, I don’t want out.”. It’s a very interesting experience to see how quick that kind of bondage becomes not only feeling natural but almost a safety blanket. A small comforting and warm, dark world with only one other voice to guide me. Even now while writing this, I can feel my mind wanting to be back in there. Not having to face the “What shall I do”, “Where shall I go”. I am looking very much forward to starting building my Isolation-suit. and testing it. It will be interesting, very intense and I think .. very liberating.
In that sense, especially when Thalia and I engage in longer sessions she will really be in the role of my eudeamon/custodian. She has read the story and she knows how my mind works and god, she knows better than none how to push my buttons. I can’t wait to experience that and yet it almost fills me with a dread as well. Will I be able to handle it or not. And many other dreams, longings, fears course through me… *happy sigh*
I am still at this point, mentally discussing and mulling over what I want my Iso-experience to be like. Part of me wants to be totally isolated from everything but sis or Thalia (the former if we are locked up together, the latter if she holds all my keys). Part of me wants to know if people would talk about me, but not not able to respond back in any way. Part of me wants none of that and just exist and observe. I am really in doubt which way I want to go and perhaps I need to try both before going there and making that choice. I don’t know, I guess time and enough time isolated will tell.
Photos from left to right:
- me, bound and gagged, suspended in foam,
- The locked slave crate with me inside
- Thalia posing with her “Christmas present”
Thank you Mistress for the wonderfull experience.
Thank you sis for letting me out lol.
xx
lexi.
PS: I am sure that there are people who think I am completely and utterly insane. And you know what, you’re probably right. But this is the way I live my second life and I love it. -
It all started out as “Lex’s Evil Mistress” locked the door to the slave crate. (Now it should be noted that the ‘Evil’ part of that title was added by Lex just prior to this incident.)
As usual my lovely little Lex became her own worst enemy and began to mention that the crate didn’t force her to mouselook and how the blindfold would make things more “interesting”.
Of course I love to indulge Lex and help her along when things could be made better so I of course went a bit further, locking her blindfold, gag, wrist cuffs and ankle cuffs. The wrist cuffs have a lovely mouselook feature which I of course turned on for my dear Lex.
It was exciting to know that I was her only link to the outside world. Vel was standing right next to her crate chatting, and Lex had no idea what was being said. This gave me the chance to keep Lex on her toes my claiming that I was going to put a “Don’t Open Till Christmas” sign on the crate. She seemed to both fear and desire this type of long term interment. I of course was all too happy to oblige.
Unfortunately as always time flys in SL and all too soon I had to leave. Not wanting to yet give up the illusion that Lex might be spending a long time in her present state, and not wanting her to be all alone I gave the keys to Vel. I gave Vel the choice as to what Lex’s outcome would be until I came back online the next day. If Vel wanted to Lex would very well have been in for a full night and day of isolation.
As we know Vel is a softy, and let Lex go.
Lex of course had mixed feelings about the end of this experience. Once we have had time to put together an iso suit, I think we will try some longer sessions and see how Lex and I feel about it. I know I am very excited to try new things, and Lex feels the same way as well as having some understandable apprehension.